The weather out there supported me to be all lazy and reckless inside my house, like right now, I am trying to write a little thoughts that has been going around in my mind everyday from my comfortable couch. And also, although the early September weather is being all breezy and cold and rainy, it doesn’t stop me from drinking (and enjoying) the iced tea I just made; and it took me a moment to stop touching my keyboards and slurping it before the ice melted because that would be a major nightmare.
Firstly, I would like to apologize for my absent (again). I never expected High School could be this stressful to be honest. As a matter of fact, I’m trying not to die of assignments, presentations, quiz, and tests, here and there, this and that, and most importantly to do the best I could. I seriously cannot wait for New Year’s long days off.
As usual, finding authenticity will always be my biggest problem. I have had inner battle with myself for past weeks and I still can’t figure out my choice. Should I leave, or shouldn’t I? I have excuses for each options, both pro and cons. The benefit on each options are even equally valuable. And if I got time to write about this subject, I would literally spent hours to months worth of thinking and wondering, which in this personal case, is not really even important.
I have been experiencing a lot of new stuff. Like: I was joining a German class in my school. but only God and I who know why I did not really like it there so I chose to quit and I feel comfortably better for myself—let me tell you, I actually have the benefit for myself that I have improved my German language, so I can be a good-tourist when I visit German one day;
beforehand, I signed up in my school’s percussion group and joined the lesson twice yet again I felt discontented with my choice, so yea, I’m out;
Next (this one is going to be good), I finally developed my disposable films! I was very excited to get it done but sadly, out of 36 of pictures I have taken with my Fujica analog camera, just a few that successfully printed out (insert multiple sad emojis). But the three of them were not even disappointing at all which I think I am going to share them out of my Instagram later.
I met so many new people in my life, and missing the old ones also. The time I did a quick meet up with Harris and Zara were weeks ago where we were exchanging some books (Zara with her poetries, Harris’ and mine Kinfolks and some other stuff), and I can’t wait to have another hours conversations with them—which always been worth every seconds.
Did I ever tell you about my upcoming project with my dearest friend, Harris? I don’t think if I did. But I will. Soon. Promise.
There are even more countless of things I’m excited about! I might admit that—I have reasons why I am happy with my life these days. Good things are on their way, I wonder what will happen next? Whooopie!